A moment.
Today, I walked into the bathroom stall, pulled out one of the seat covers that my school so sweetly offers, and thought, “Wow… I’m really in nursing school. I’ve pushed towards this for the past three years of my life and here I am. I get to meet beautiful people at their bedside and advocate for them.” It may not be biochemical research or third world missionary work, but it’s the world He’s created for me. And the world is conspiring.
Been so caught up with exams and due dates that I’m lucky to get these moments of peace and gratitude—even if it’s merely during the passing (no pun intended) time of when I stop at the washroom. It’s the simplest things, I suppose.
What a journey life is, Lord!
- Another Planet (Feat. Marcus Johnson)
Time For Prayer
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“Wifey IV” written by Chu
-“Joceyln, How may I prove my love to you? How?!”
-“…If you would prove your love, you should do your worst?”
-“My worst? What do you mean?”
-“Instead of winning to honor me with your high reputation, I want you to act against your normal character and do badly.”
-“Losing proves nothing, except that i’m a loser!”
-“Wrong. Losing is a much keener test of your love. Losing would contradict your self-love, and losing would show obedience to your lover and not yourself! …What is your answer?”
-“I will not lose.”
-“Then you do not love me.”
-A Knight’s Tale
I regcognize many as being involved in a sport like interaction with their counterpart, a game.keeping score. they, most unknowingly, play to win, seeking visions fulfilled, effort requitted, and feelings mutual. going from team to team, they somehow muster up the energy and desire to play again and again holding themselves, their hearts, together with bandages and braces. Why, my friend, are you so down trotten when you lose? Did you expect the perfect season? We have all heard “You win some and you loose some”. We hvae all heard “Dont hate the player, hate the game”. You sought an oppenent who’s defense you were certain you would advance on; the easy thing. Heaven forbid you ever end up with someone who could possibly challenge your intellect; pull you out of bad habits and the smallness that was unapperent to you up til then. You were in it for the home team, and the opponent came in and stole one away. Back and forth throwing and recieving blows, keeping score, taking and giving, until the referee raised the hand of your ringmate. How then are you the victim?
Love is not a matter of losing and winning, it is a matter of loss and gain; it this respect, wise and true is the lover who would choose to lose.
One day I asked my students, “What or whom do you love?” One named her favorite band, while another, in his oppourtunity to inspire laughter yelled out, ”I love pizza!” My response to them, if you would allow me such foolishness, was an attempt to open their eye to the relization that it was not she who loved her favorite band, rather it was the band, though the joy and stirring that their tunes offered, who loved her. I conveyed that it was not he who loved pizza, rather it was the pizza, though it’s filling and nourishment, that loved him. You actuually brought forth nothing of your own.
To love and to give work hand in hand and cannot be separated. If any man claim that he loves someone or something, then readily fails to devote time and energy to this individual or practice, he has then proven himself a liar.
There is no degree of love. It is like the hokey pokey, sooner or later you will have to throw your whole self in. Though we be imperfect and remain unfinished in this life, Love reflects wholeness and completion. Your love language may differ when communicated to your brother, your friend, or your lover but it does not weaken. Does a man, after having been hurt , think that he can restrain and contain by choosing how much he is willing to put into his next relationship; how far friends are allowed to go before reaching the walls he’s placed up? Does one believe that he or she can journey, having numerous intimate encounters, many friends with benifits, and not include love, or all of his love, in his doings? It is not so. Love will soon make fools of them all.
If it is too hard for you to do and love in this season, then work towards being an easier person to love. though it not yet be your own works you are, in some sense, remaing an advocate of love and kindness. Love is strong, even when it is down it is never really out. You will see that your claims of further withholding and of being “finished” will not uphold. You will eventually turn back and continue on. Weathering the seasons and storms of lonliness, rejection, and hurt will eventually, if handled correctly, shine and bring forth a strong, constant and, uncircumstancial type of love. Keep fighting on.
I doubt you are even able to articulate what you really want or are expecting from the friends and loved ones that you charge with failing to uphold mutuality; complain about things being unfair. When you have reached this point, it has become clear that you are for self. That all of the needs and desires that come from such things have become a bottemless pit; an unquinchable thirst.
Maybe it is not the things that you have failed to recieve, the things that you feel you others are not doing, that gives you such a strong sense of incompletion. Maybe it has to do with the things that you have not yet done, the spacees you have not yet filled by stepping out in fearlessness, the love that you have thus far failed to completely give away. Give and love freely, that you might soon know love and freedom in fullness. You will not know what it looks like or how to properly recieve it, if you are not first familiar through giving it away.
“Love to be real, it must cost—it must hurt—it must empty us of self.”
-Mother Theresa
bon!
“It don’t take a whole day to recognize Sunshine.”
Lovely, beautiful, magnificent Father— I am so grateful to know You. <3“
”There is no way to peace; peace is the way. There is now way to happiness; happiness is the way. There is no way to love; love is the way.”
The destination and journey are one in the same. There is no way without The Way. Truth must accompany you in your pursuit of truth. Man is unable to have life, life in abundance, without Life residing in the home of his heart. Surrender and let Love lead. He is and knows well the way.
” Wise ChuThink I’ve found my new morning ‘Wake-Up-&-Dance!’ song :)
- “When it pours, give me more!”
- “But it don’t matter cause the Sun will dry us in a sec.”
- “Know that we can conquer anything. Anything!”
Favorite track on the album.
“If I speak in human and angelic tongues* but do not have love, I am a resounding gong or a clashing cymbal.”
1 Corinthians 13:1. The Art Of Surrender. Music Min Retreat 2012. Have Love, ya’ll.All I know, just keep breathing. Galatians 6:9.
